I know its WAY early but you can never be too prepared. With Mecah we had two girls names picked out (none of which were Mecah)and I agreed impulsively to her name ...not that I regret it but I rather be prepared instead this time. LOL

Girls Names:
Emilia Marie (Emma for short) Cory is NOT fond of this one. LOL

Shawna Marie

Jade Marie

(We use middle names that are in the family...Jake's Middle name [Preston] is Cory's uncle's middle name, Mecah's middle name [lynn] is Cory's Mom's middle name. So marie is his sister's and grandma's middle name. LOL. )


Boys Names:
Seth Allen (Allen after his dad but if we decide on another boy's name that Allen doesn't go with, we will do Maurice which is his middle name)

Since at my ultrasound he said he saw something that he shouldn't have, I am incredibly nervous. Everyone keeps telling me not to be and act like everything is ok but thats because it isn't them so they can just say it and brush it off. doesn't take away that I am scared to go to my next appointment for fear of finding out something bad, doesn't ttake away the fact that  the days are going by so slow until my next ultrasound and appointment. I called today and got *some* of my blood results back, just the ones for the regular blood testing, not the pap or the HCG beta. I am going to call back tomorrow afternoon to see if they know anything then. (They said to call back then).  . . I just want a healthy baby to hold and nurse at the end of my 9 months. I want to get a big belly and feel the baby kick and grow inside me...I want this more than ever. Everyone said how lucky I was that I got to just tell everyone and not have to worry about something happening but they were wrong. I do have to worry, now more than ever.  People generally are worrying for the safety of their child when there is no indication of anything being wrong but it makes it 1000 times worse when you are told there could be something wrong with you/the baby. I can hardly eat or sleep because I am anxious of finding out anything. i even thought about moving my appointment up but I want to be *sure* that I will be far enough along to have the doctor see the heartbeat on the U/S. I am pry the only one taking this to heart but wouldn't you if you were in my shoes? Everyone immediate in my life I have talked to so far just brush it off and don't care, including cory. He says he does but then when I bring it up becuase I need a comforting hug, he just says it will be ok and changes the subject. Idk, maybe everything will be, then I will be happy but I cant relax or look at cute baby stuff until i KNOW. I am supposed to protect the baby but what if i am not doing my job good enough?!

I wonder how i ended up with such a great man. I mean, we have our ups and downs all the time but who doesn't? he and I are finally ready for another baby, too! We sat down and talked about everything ... he makes enough money, we are hopefully moving into our own house soon, we are almost done with his car payments to get me something to lug 3 kids around in, and we both are finally ok with everything all around.. .. .. hopefully soon we will get some good news ::keeping fingers crossed::.